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45-Year-Old Virgin DeJuaii Pace: I Got Fat By Staying In The Closet

I’m at peace because I made peace with God about it. And I told him, “Listen, You’re the only who can deal with this thing; you’re the only one who can direct me through it. But I’m going to be honest with you, God: “Yes, I like it.” I did three 40-day fasts to get rid of the “demon,” or “the spirit,” of the [gay] lifestyle, as we call it. And [fasting] kept things at bay, but the temptations were there when I wasn’t deeply praying and fasting, and when I re-emerged, the temptations were still there. And I kept saying, “God, if you’re a God who delivers from all manner of [iniquity], then why is this thing still here?” Sometimes it’s not strong for years, and then at moments it’s strong. There’s something that God is doing here that we in the church community need to take a closer look at. Don’t just say, “You gotta get rid of it.” […] I am a real-deal, true virgin. Because my mother and my dad had brought us up [to believe] that the greatest gift that I could give to my husband, my soul mate, is to give to them myself that has not been tainted with anybody else or anything else. And I value that highly. And by the grace of God, [the Lord] has helped me and kept me. […] I attribute my weight gain to not having a voice to speak out about things that were bothering me. And my number one thing was having that temptation to be with women.

—DeJuaii Pace, who appears on OWN’s new show Addicted to Food, is a black, Christian, 45-year-old virgin lesbian gospel singer. Also, a food addict. [via]