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Fashion designer turned adult entertainer and HIV activist Jack Mackenroth has posted a candid, heartfelt apology to his ex online. In it, he details his struggles with drug addiction, including his battles with crystal meth.
“Dear friends and fans, I am a recovering drug addict. I am admitting to actions towards @dolfdietrich & many others with 100% rigorous honesty, humility, and embarrassment but with the hope of becoming a better man in doing so,” said Mackenroth, 52, in a Tweet. He also attached a lengthy statement as an image.
Dear friends and fans,
I am a recovering drug addict. I am admitting to actions towards @dolfdietrich & many others with 100% rigorous honesty, humility, and embarrassment but with the hope of becoming a better man in doing so. See attached copy & thank you for your support. JM pic.twitter.com/3l7AwvPPWz— Jack Mackenroth (Top 2% Onlyfans, .5%JFF)NYC (@JackMackenroth) July 18, 2021
His statement goes on to offer further details.
“Meth binges made me a shitty person. Taking copious amounts of Xanax to come down from drugs was what eventually took me down and almost killed me.
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“I am sober today. I’m not perfect in any way but every day I am making amends to all of the people I affected and treated poorly.”
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Mackenroth goes on to say he’s not abused any drugs for 46 days.
“In the midst of my addiction I hurt many people but most of all I hurt my boyfriend (now ex-boyfriend) @dolfdietrich. The list of horrid things I did is long and disgraceful but in a tangible effort to make reparations, I am listing all of the things I did and all the untruths so he can have peace of mind and begin to repair the damage I inflicted.”
He goes on to say that whilst high on drugs, he “tormented and terrorized” fellow adult entertainer Dolf Dietrich, “and made him feel unsafe in his own apartment. I broke into his apartment when he was out of town and took many of his belongings–clothes, computer, electronics, leather gear … etc. He trusted me and I betrayed that trust.”
Mackenroth goes on to say he publicly posted things about Dietrich that were untrue in an attempt to damage his then-boyfriend’s brand. This included telling a gossip blog that his boyfriend was a “pedophile … which was 100% bullshit. It still haunts him today and I am forever remorseful about that.”
Mackenroth says he got Dietrich banned from his gym for nudity and sent compromising photos of him to the gym’s management.
“The list of horrid things I did was long and unbelievable but I need to list them to come clean, be a better man and give him a sense of well-being again.
“I jammed the lock to his apartment preventing access while his dog was inside and forced him to call an emergency locksmith.”
“I terrorized him with threats and the promise of causing him harm.”
Mackenroth details several other examples of his behavior to his ex: “The list goes on and on.”
“I am committed to rectifying anything that I can,” he says.
He ends by saying, “I can’t make excuses for anything I did. Saying ‘I was under the influence of meth and xanax’ does not relinquish me from culpability. He didn’t deserve any of the bullshit that rained down on him and I am surprised and honored he is still speaking to me. It speaks to his amazing character as a human being. I hope he can forgive me and I hope anyone who reads this can let me show you that I am a new person. Actions speak louder than words.”
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Mackenroth became HIV positive aged just 19. He publicly revealed his status in 2008 while a contestant on Project Runway. Afterward, he took part in a large amount of HIV-awareness raising. In recent years, he has boosted his following further with his explicit OnlyFans content.
This isn’t the first time Mackenroth has posted a public apology to Dietrich. He did so back at the end of May, but that one didn’t go into so much detail. It said he was seeking to get himself into a rehab facility.
Dietrich re-shared Mackenroth’s statement to his own social media. On Facebook he said, “This isn’t easy for me to talk about. In fact, I’ve been keeping this a secret this entire year. I need to share. Not only to hopefully heal, but I hope sharing my story of domestic violence might help someone else out there.
“Meth and violence are beating us down in the LGBTQI community… do not add messages of hate for what he did to me; I’ve moved past that. I commend Jack for his courage in writing this and coming clean.
“It’s time to set the record straight. Many of you know this year I was robbed, terrorized, harassed and slandered. Police, courts, restraining order. I am a victim of domestic violence. Today, the man who perpetrated these acts on me made a statement. Via @jackmackenroth”
It’s time to set the record straight. Many of you know this year I was robbed, terrorized, harassed and slandered.
Police, courts, restraining order. I am a victim of domestic violence.
Today, the man who perpetrated these acts on me made a statement. Via @jackmackenroth pic.twitter.com/nXP3rGfZXK
— Dolf Dietrich (@DolfDietrich) July 18, 2021
Here’s wishing Mackenroth all the best in successfully continuing his recovery, and that Dietrich can heal from the past, traumatizing few months.
If you are dealing with issues related to crystal meth use, please speak to a medical expert about getting help.
Hdtex
Garbage people. All of them.
rickywintour
Yes we know you are.
MissTerri
Tee hee! Messy, messy Queens!!!!!
Cam
Like Don Jr. and Matt Gaetz.
BaltoSteve
I remember when I first saw Jack on Project Runway and he came out as HIV positive, and then parlaying that into a career as an HIV Activist. He had so much hope to offer and it’s sad his life has taking this dark turn. I wish him the best and may he find that hope and light that he has obviously lost sight.
Chrisk
Wow. Sure not the typical tweaker look. You can get away with it in your 20s and 30s but that shit will hit you hard by your 40s.
I’m glad he’s coming out about this. That’s very brave of him and can help others. Making amends to people is the first step in recovery.
My only advice is if someone is doing meth around you get far far away. They will take you down with them. Meth is the worst drug out there by far.
1898
he’s had extensive plastic surgery and wears tons of makeup, that’s why he doesn’t look the part
LABuck
Just more free publicity to promote his “brand”. Grow up. Apologize in private and get your act together. As Rachel Maddow says, “Watch what they do, not what they say”. Let’s see how “sorry” Jack is by his future actions. There are so many other LGBTQIA+ people doing good work in our community that need the publicity and praise so, giving Jack a platform like this sucks, IMHO.
Creamsicle
Maybe giving this person visbility through his public apology will help some other queer person struggling with drug addiction. Simply dismissing people doesn’t do anything to help anyone, it actually prevents addicts from taking the first and crucial step of seeking treatment, and you’d be surprised by the number of successful addicts who can hide their behavior for years before the addiction spirals out of control.
Rather than shaming people for having abused drugs and become caught in the toxic cycle of addiction, providing them an opportunity to get clean in both spirit and body actually gets them to positively invest in their own sobriety, and sobriety NEEDS to be internally motivated if a patient is ever going to have a chance at maintaining their sobriety.
radiooutmike
Good christ…the shit he did.
I don’t know either of them from Adam; but Mackenroth seems like one of those who just need attention. Dietrich should not have even responded.
LumpyPillows
I thought he was gorgeous when he was on Project Runway. He really seems to be a terrible person. Go figure.
Prax07
Jeez people today. The way to apologize and make amends to someone is not to do it over social media so the entire world can see. It’s meaningless they way he did it. Absolutely meaningless.
Mikeymusto
Not really. He’s trying to publicly exonerate Dolph from all the lies he spread about Dolph. Dolph is happy Jack did this.
SpireaX
I agree with you. Amends are admitting what you did, saying they were wrong, making restitution sand asking the person you wronged how to make things right.
Dolph may “agree” but it doesn’t make the way Jack did his “amends” right. Using social media to trumpet your amends is like using a billboard to admit you were unfaithful. Neither is right nor helpful to either party.
Mario Golden
Rampant narcissism+meth. Bad combination.
JRamonMc
Is “Only Fans” the only way to make money? Certainly easy money. Some how I suspect drugs and porn go hand in hand, so until you escape that profession, you’re still vulnerable.
Doug
Wow. Meth has always been a nasty drug, but it’s hard for me to imagine someone doing all the things he describes here to a person they cared about.
MarkyMarkNipple
As Shakespeare Sister says “We hurt the ones we love the most.
It’s a subtle form of compliment.”
barryaksarben
I am sick to death of people blaming the drugs for their shitty behavior. I was heavily involved with meth for a time but never once stole anything or harmed other people except for my loved ones who were worried about me. I always paid my rent and expenses and never out and out lied about my use. I was able to stop after moving across country to remove the temptation and accessibility. It was hard but I did it. If you think drugs make you a horrible person you are so wrong. I would never treat a lover or ex lover like that
TwinPeaker
Wow Jack seems like a total monster for the things he did to his ex! I don’t think you can ever come back from that.
1898
“we wish him well”? really? he should be in prison for the multiple serious crimes he committed
BoylesqueBubble
The ENTIRE MESS played out on Twitter, well over a month ago (and was reported several other places, oddly not here) and it was just disgusting. Jack posted pictures of himself covered in blood, acting as if he’d been assaulted (the pictures were screengrabbed and posted on Str8UpGayPorn) showing various body parts with blood on them, yet no source of a wound where the blood came from. Another picture of his ex boyfriend looking just beaten down with fear, saying the man had (I believe) busted down his door. Then posted pictures of weird plastic toys I guess the ex allegedly liked to shove up his ass and then “birth”? Posted doll clothes as “proof” the ex boyfriend was a pedophile. Jack Mackenroth had a very messy and VERY public meltdown, and he happily did so on Twitter. Then suddenly he posts from his hospital bed (finally, pictures where his face hasn’t been photoshopped to grotesque lengths like Madonna) seeking even more attention. He pretty much cleaned house in his exes’ apartment. Sad thing? Apparently they still live in the same building.
Well before he became a sex worker and began making porn, Jack had pretty much burned his bridges with the HIV community. Jack has always been about Jack. Even this meltdown and ongoing dispatches from a psychiatric unit, show his narcissism. He needs to stay off social media and get his shit together. Sorry he’s dealing with addiction, but he brought this whole mess on himself.
humble charlie
He probably did his ex a favor by stealing his leather gear. Though it was probably to prevent him from squeaking all over the apartment building and annoying everybody. And not to prevent him from looking silly. Meth addicts only think about themselves.
Toofie
Well the apology is good I guess. Nobody reading those tweets from then believed them because they was so childish. Just a train wreck. The ex should have NO contact with him. Thanks for the apology but that’s all the contact they should ever have.
Heywood Jablowme
“Mackenroth goes on to say he’s not abused any drugs for 46 days.”
Wow, 46 DAYS! He is quite a “quick study.” Well I’m sure there’s no danger of relapse if he’s such an expert at recovery. /s
Vince
Making a public apology tells me that he really wants to change. That takes balls.
Prax07
@Creamsicle The world might be a better place if addicts like that douche ended up not surviving. Just sayin.
Vince
I’m surprised you can even recognize another douche besides yourself.
aussiechef
Note to self. Don’t read the comments. Do not u der any circumstances read the comments.
Dammit I read the comments. So many perfect people read queerty and rush to point out others flaws. I feel inadequate in comparison to all these correspondents who have never made a mistake in their lives. Who’ve lived blameless and faultless lives.
Who are quick to throw stones.
Given the overall negative responses in comments on queerty one has to wonder why they are even open any more. Other than to prove that the LGBTQI+ community will happily eat itself.
TLDR : drug addiction is an illness and needs to treated as such. Recovering addicts need support not hate.
Zorba123
Thank you!!! Yes, we all have opinions and experiences and think we know what’s best but do we really?
Not having been through this person’s experience I agree with what you have to write and for taking the time to write it.
So many judgements and so little real understanding. We are all individuals with unique experiences in life. I, for one, shall not presume to know what this man is all about having never “walked in his shoes” as the saying goes.
LumpyPillows
Perhaps drug addiction is an “illness”, does not excuse the horrible things he did. Now he’s trying to get attention again, for being a complete douche. I’m beginning to think all this touchy-feely stuff we’ve been fed on the liberal side of the fence just makes us look like suckers. If the republicans weren’t so terrible, I do think I would stray from being a democrat.
Vince
LumpyPillows
If you have no empathy for others then what’s stopping ya? You are the Republican type through and through.
Cam
I have empathy for the victim of his abuse. I have far less for the perpetrator.
jackscott
Jack is pure trash & shouldn’t be given a spotlight. He’s a grown man making horrible decisions. Please just go away & stay off social media. I hope others don’t film with him again!