Drug addiction can be one of the most challenging things to talk about publicly, but true to Katya’s fear-be-damned attitude, the RuPaul‘s Drag Race all star is helping to shed light on a vital topic.
Chatting it up on RuPaul’s podcast What’s the Tee? With Michelle Visage, Katya didn’t hold back on the truth, from family life to drugs to how she really felt when she saw Alaska in the work room on day one of Drag Race All Stars season 2.
The drag fan favorite opened up about a difficult time in her life — a nervous breakdown while in her sophomore year at Massachusetts College of Art and Design — and how it led to falling down a drug-fueled rabbit hole to cope with the depression that accompanied it.
“I’m thinking of suicide everyday because I can’t imagine at losing at life,” Katya recalls feeling. “I started stealing speed from my roommate. I wanted to do drugs to do more, to live, to cope, to be happy.”
That’s when meth entered the equation.
“I’ve been through hell on meth, but I’ve also been up in the clouds, and thats why you do it,” she told Ru and Michelle.
Katya’s success, professionally and personally, is a testament to getting through tough times and coming out the other side.
Fans have clearly latched onto her ever-developing confidence, wanting to see her succeed in every way possible. It’s no surprise, then, that her one woman show’s Kickstarter more than doubled its fundraising goal, blasting past $33k for a total of $74,580 raised.
On a lighter note, Katya gave some behind-the-scenes commentary on her exceptional run during All Stars season two:
“When Alaska walked in there the first thing I thought was ’f*ck, I cant win,'” she said. “The second thing was: ’oh, thank God’ because I felt free, the pressure was off. I cant have to win but I need to be able to do this well. And I did that and I was proud of myself.”
You can find the full podcast here.