Monica Lewinsky Says Suicide of Gay Rutgers Student Prompted Her To Break Her Decade-Long Silence

Monica_lewinskyMonica Lewinsky, the former White House aide with whom Bill Clinton insisted he did not have sex (except oral, of course), has kept a low profile for a decade. But in excerpts from an upcoming Vanity Fair article about her fling with the then-president, Lewinsky reveals a surprising reason why she’s speaking out now: the suicide of Tyler Clementi, the 18-year-old Rutgers student who killed himself after two other students streamed his encounter with another male student live on the internet.

Clementi’s suicide in September 2010 made Lewinsky cry, but it really shook her mother up. “She was reliving 1998, when she wouldn’t let me out of her sight.” Lewinsky writes. “She was replaying those weeks when she stayed by my bed, night after night, because I, too, was suicidal. The shame, the scorn, and the fear that had been thrown at her daughter left her afraid that I would take my own life—a fear that I would be literally humiliated to death.”

Lewinsky writes she had suicidal thoughts, but never acted upon them. After Clementi’s death, she felt that “my own suffering took on a different meaning. Perhaps by sharing my story, I reasoned, I might be able to help others in their darkest moments of humiliation. The question became: How do I find and give a purpose to my past?”

If nothing else, Lewinsky has shined a new spotlight on Clementi’s death, years after attention to that tragic event has faded.

As for Lewinsky, her re-emergence is bound to be linked to Hillary Clinton‘s presidential aspirations. (Republican Sen. Rand Paul has already used the Lewinsky card to rally the GOP base.) In the excerpt, Lewinsky, now 40, goes surprisingly easy on Hillary, considering that the former First Lady once called her a “narcissistic loony toon.”

Perhaps the best bit from the excerpt is directed at, of all people, Beyoncé, who refers to Lewinsky in her hit “Partition.” Says Lewinsky, “Thanks, Beyoncé, but if we’re verbing, I think you meant ‘Bill Clinton’d all on my gown,’ not ‘Monica Lewinsky’d.’”

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  • Cam

    Hmmm, really so something that happened 4 1/2 years ago convinced her to break her silence now? Couldn’t be that nobody cared at all until Hillary is looking like she might run huh? ;)

  • Qjersey

    The best way to avoid being burned by the media limelight is to stay out of it. Clearly this is about two things: Book sales (because really what career does ML really have), and yes, putting a knife in Hillary.

  • 1EqualityUSA

    (What is the one gift Lewinsky wouldn’t give back? The string of pearls.)
    Her life is wholly defined by this one act. At least Hillary Clinton has moved on from this torrid time and done a few things. This bimbo is still wallowing in her bodily fluids as though it were as fresh as yesterday’s goat milk.
    Tyler Clementi did not commit adultery, so this is an unfair comparison. The Republicans are scraping the bottom of the barrel for their lack of substantive relevance. Lewinsky is all you’ve got? Republicans are pathetic.

  • petensfo

    The comparison to Tyler Clementi is offensive.

    She should really STFU. Maybe if we humiliate her enough this time, she can prove me wrong… by jumping.

  • Kangol



    She is just being a totally shameless, offensive attention wh0re, probably because she needs some $$ and because she wants to harm Hillary Rodham Clinton’s chances to become President.

    There is absolutely nothing that links her to Tyler Clementi, nothing nothing nothing! She wasn’t even an intern when she started dating President Clinton, and in any case, she really should not piggyback on that tragedy. It demeans Tyler Clementi and shows her to be clueless.

    Monica thing, that train has already left the station. Please, get help. And spare us, okay? Your story was old the day after the grotesque Starr Report came out! Some of us lived through that mess and unfortunately recall all the details, including the GOP’s attempted impeachment of Bill Clinton.

    Please, just go away!!!!!!!!

  • renly

    I didn’t think I could get any more embarrassed for her. Clearly I was wrong.

  • drivendervish

    Let me see here! The suicide of a gay man outed on the internet 4 years ago led her to blab to Vanity Fair now?? This is nothing more than a straight up money grab and depending on who pays the most she will go back under her rock or she will tour the country speaking at republican events.

  • DickieJohnson

    Oh, for crissakes! ML’s mother is the one who insisted she keep the infamous “DNA-stained dress” as proof of the affair, and to produce it at the proper time. BooHoo with the daughter-humiliation b*llsh*t. The heifer knew all along what she was doing, and the likely consequences were it to be made public. Now, stir in the Republicans! Even more lame, y’all.

  • CleJoke

    she sucks!

    disappear again!

    and next time republicans chant beatlejuile, ahem, i mean monica, stay away!



  • Thad1527

    If Monica’s speaking out keeps even one person from suicide, it’s fine by me.

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