News of Clay Aiken’s gay ways shot across the world last night. And, if you’re anything like us, you were simply tossing and turning as you awaited new details about the American Idol star’s sexuality. Well, wait no more, because, like a bit of voyeuristic foreplay, People has published excerpts from their interview with the newly gay Aiken.
Aiken, who for years denied his homosexuality, explains that he didn’t mean to lie, but simply lacked the wherewithal to come clean. It wasn’t until he had his own child, via in vitro fertilization, that Aiken says he realized he needed to tell the world: “It was the first decision I made as a father. I cannot raise a child to lie or to hide things. I wasn’t raised that way, and I’m not going to raise a child to do that.”
The singer also reveals a bit about how his born again Christian mother took the news. Here’s a hint: not well.
After dropping off his younger brother Brett, who was being deployed to Iraq, at Camp Lejeune, “I started crying in the car,” Aiken remembers. “It was dark. I was sitting there, thinking to myself. I don’t know why I started thinking about it … I just started bawling. She made me pull over the car and it just came out.”
So what was his mom’s reaction? “She started crying. She was obviously somewhat stunned. But she was very supportive and very comforting.” Even now, Aiken admits, “She still struggles with things quite a bit, but she’s come a long way.”
Aiken realizes some of his fans will have trouble coping, but says he hopes they don’t feel anger: “I’ve never intended to lie to anybody at all… If they leave, I don’t want them to leave hating me.”