Gaelic football star Cathal McCarron is finally opening up about that time in 2014 when he made international headlines for appearing in a gay-for-pay adult film.
In his new autobiography Out of Control, the 28-year-old soccer star writes how his gambling addiction led him to appear in the film when he was 25.
McCarron says that the producers initially told him the video would only be available on a pay-per-view basis in U.S. hotels. They offered him £3,000 (about $3600 U.S.) to be filmed having sex with another guy, first as a bottom, then as a top. Already almost £200,000 in debt from his gambling habit, McCarron agreed.
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“When the filming was over I felt physically sick, disgusted that I had allowed myself to sink into such an abyss of degradation and humiliation,” he says.
Though anyone who’s seen the film would likely argue he doesn’t look “physically sick” or “disgusted.” In fact, he looks to be quite enjoying himself.
Maybe he’s just a really good actor?
Shortly after the film was released, McCarron says the press got wind of it. He quickly deleted his social media accounts and jetted off to rehab.
Today, McCarron says he’s still trying to shake the experience, though he’s accepted it as part of the fabric of his being.
“Some people will continue to form the same opinion of you. A lot of them still think I’m gay,” he says. “I still get online approaches, or some form of social media connectivity, from the gay community. It’s embarrassing when some man asks to meet you, but I don’t look on that as a negative.”
He continues: “Some gay men seem to look upon me as a kind of gay icon. That’s how I was tagged on some LGBT community websites and discussion boards.”
Gay icon? Really? OK, Cathal, we’ll humor you this one time. But only because you’re cute.
“When the video went viral, some of those forums were laced with comments from gay men about how much they wanted to have sex with me,” he recalls. “The last thing I am is gay, but I’ll take those comments above vile, vitriolic, homophobic and personal abuse any day of the week.”
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Ultimately, McCarron says he’s thankful to and deeply appreciative for the gay community. While the rest of the world was laughing at him during his lowest point, gay men were cheering him on while masturbating up a storm.
“I really appreciated their messages of support when so many others wanted to bury me,” he says.
grahambower
Uhm. Gaelic football is not soccer.
Celtic
There is no shame in enjoying man on man sex as both a bottom and as a top. The fact McCarron performed without visible disgust or shame tells more of his story than he wants people to hear. That does not mean McCarron is totally queer. He simply enjoyed the romp, and likely would enjoy it again but has fear over admitting that. We humans try to type-cast people, continuing to embrace the fact that many men and women are bisexual; or, simply enjoy a trip on the other side from time to time. Now, to surf for that vid!!
da90027
LOL…gay icon? Never heard of him…where does Queerty find these people? Slow news day?
avesraggiana
I don’t know…it looked like he was really enjoying himself! But, that doesn’t make him gay, does it?
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Eye of the Beholder
The tone of this article was so negative, and thanks for the clickbait title Queerty. He didn’t call himself a gay icon. He said that’s how he “was tagged on some LGBT community websites, and discussion boards”. So are you calling him a liar directly? Did you do the research to affirm that he’s lying? Read at face value the comment didn’t seem stretched. Maybe some queen behind one of your desks just got jealous of a straight man’s gay porn success.
JCalvinius
“I really appreciated their messages of support when so many others wanted to bury me,” he says.
That’s what makes him a gay icon.
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Roan
Well, he certainly gives h*ead like a straight guy and the dead eyes isn’t very attractive.
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scotty
icon? hardly. and not even that attractive. YMMV
Aromaeus
At least he didn’t go an anti-gay tirade like so many guys who get caught doing gay-for-pay stuff end up doing.
BigG
He is such a closet queen come on that guys done that more than one time. And I’m sorry but you never hear gay men say I was so deep in my addiction I ate vagina and resorted to straight for pay. Ridiculous.
pscheck2
Is it not interesting that he is filled with disgust and loathing after making a gay porn movie, only after it was broadcast in the U.K.? Also, he is supposed to be in debt to the tune of f200,000 and he only received f3,000 to make this film! That would hardly pay the interest on his debt, so it’s ridiculous he would expose himself to ‘shame’ and ‘humiliation’ for such a small pittance !I get tired of these so-called str8 celebs doing gay porn! Their excuse it is done for pay is highly dubious and in my HO, they are gay hiding in a celluloid closet!
Jack Meoff
@pscheck2: I agree on all counts. What’s worse are the gay guys who pretend to be straight guys doing gay for pay because it sells better. What a negative message that sends to the gay community.
@BigG: I thought the same thing. There is no way he hasn’t done that at least 10 or 20 times before.
inbama
Of course it was humiliating.
They didn’t exactly partner him with an Adonis.
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seaguy
He wishes he was a gay icon but he is nothing close to Barbara, Madonna, Dolly to name a few gay icons.
seaguy
@BigG: Amen! There is no straight for pay genre that I know of cause we gays are gay period, and no money can make us eat and stick our dicks into a vagina, at least not the amounts they are paying in the porn industry.
seaguy
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seaguy
@Jack Meoff: I think the gay guys who pretend to be straight and then do gay for pay are probably doing it cause they want to do a sketchysex scene and be the bottom. I can see some gay guys doing that cause it would fulfill some fantasies many have like doing porn, getting gang banged, and then throw in the straight guys factor its a sluts dream.
PolishBear
The other guy in the film is a lot cuter than Cathal McCarron is.
Baba Booey Fafa Fooey
I’m relieved to read here how many people find “gay for pay” ridiculous and awful. Thank you.
icntblvit
@seaguy: He never said he was a gay icon. He said someone called him a gay icon. If you are going to be nasty, at least read the article.
icntblvit
@pscheck2: “When the filming was over I felt physically sick, disgusted that I had allowed myself to sink into such an abyss of degradation and humiliation,” he says.
WHEN THE FILMING WAS OVER
icntblvit
The guy McCarron had to perform with looks like he should be in a fetish for pigs porno.
BillSam
I love these guys who insist they are DEFINITELY NOT GAY but somehow skirt the issue of bisexuality in a most disingenuous fashion.
KM201
@Arconcyyon: That wasn’t English….or at least, written in English in a way that a half away intelligent person would understand. Clearly it’s not your first language, but wow.
KM201
@PolishBear: Agreed. I don’t understand why everyone here think he’s so ugly. Sure he’s a bit pudgy, but he’s hairy and masc. That’s enough for me.
KM201
Bets on when Cathal joins Ben Cohen on the LGBT pandering circuit?
jake28
@BillSam: Totally agree but it is also the straight and gay news outlets that just allow them to to do so. They should replace this gay for pay nonsense with bi if you try.
Captain Obvious
Never heard of this queen and she ain’t cute so I don’t care.
ErikO
Why doesn’t he just come out as bisexual instead of pretending to be “straight” or “gay for pay”?
ErikO
No actual hetero/straight guy does gay or bisexual porn, call them like they are closeted bisexual and gay men who are being marketed as “straight” to appease the queens who have homophobic and biphobic fantasies and need the fantasy of having sex with a hetero guy.
SumSay
@ErikO: He doesn’t owe anyone an explanation about his sexual identity. Personally I’m not interested in anyone’s sexual identity. That’s their business, and why should it matter? If it matters that much then porn isn’t for you. It’s fantasy, and porn isn’t meant to validate reality. If you’re not into “straight” guys screwing “straight” or “bi” or “gay” guys, then don’t watch it. There’s plenty of porn out there that caters to certain needs.
ass eater
he was also passive in the video, i find it hard to believe a totally straight man would have no problem taking a dick in the ass so easily on the first try, especially if he’s never been penetrated. i would think a straight man would not know what to do. i remember my first time being passive, it took at least a week before i could take it all. i saw a solo clip of his asshole, that don’t look like no straight asshole! look at str8camjeff’s vids, i believe thats a straight asshole, tight as a button you can barely see it.
ass eater
i do feel for him a little, money is tight to come by, but i think most of these guys are not being honest. i guess he could be straight because he only did it once. but i do agree that the media and the world acts as if he murdered someone, damn it’s just sex! maybe the pressures of society won’t allow us to be honest.