At least once a week, I get asked, “Whatever happened to that Joey Stefano biopic you were going to do?”
Every time, I sigh and reply, “Still trying to find the financing. Got a million bucks?” This for nearly eighteen years.
The 1994 overdose death of Joey Stefano (born Nicholas Iacona) began haunting me a week after the tragedy of Sept 11, 2001.
I was at A Different Light Bookstore on Santa Monica Boulevard in West Hollywood and Charles Isherwood’s 1996 biography of the doomed porn star, Wonder Bread and Ecstasy, literally fell off a shelf in front of me.
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I had met many “Joeys” while living in LA and working as a director at Central Casting so I knew the type: Young wannabes, who moved to Hollywood to be famous. They knew they were beautiful. Their looks got them behind the ropes and into celebrity parties in the hills. Wide-eyed and naïve, they eventually got hooked on drugs and alcohol and a few months later, began escorting or doing porn for fast money.
I bought the book, read it in one sitting, and immediately contacted legendary porn auteur, Chi Chi LaRue. The drag porn impresario discovered Stefano after being introduced by porn star Tony Davis in 1989 and shortly thereafter, their careers exploded. Stefano became one of the biggest stars in the industry and LaRue one of the biggest producers/directors. Rounding out the legendary Porn Brat Pack of the heyday of gay porn was Geoff Gann (aka “Karen Dior”), Sharon Kane, Chris Green, Fred Bagey (aka “Gender”), and writer Mickey Skee. Other members would come and go, but they were the originals. This, I thought, would be a great cast of characters to revolve a plot around.
Joey’s rise in the porn industry also included an appearance in Madonna’s Sex book, after she spotted him dancing at the Gaiety Theatre, a porn palace in New York City. Drug use was common in those days, but his addiction was on a whole different level. Joey overdosed several times before the final time in that now-infamous motel room at the corner of Hollywood Boulevard and La Brea.
Chi Chi was the ringleader of this group and no one would be able to tell this story properly without him. However, my plans were squashed when he emailed me back, “I have ZERO interest in ever talking to you about this as a movie.”
I spent the next nine years in LA in and out of casting, working for the showrunners on Crossing Jordan, battling cancer, and working as an assistant to an actress. Like a lot of aspiring behind-the-screen types in Hollywood, I spent most of my time writing screenplays for producers who didn’t have the money they claimed in order to produce my scripts, which had been optioned for one dollar.
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On a summer night in 2010, I was done with LA and ready to move back to Atlanta, where I grew up. Sitting at St. Felix with some friends, my buddy Adam Cuculich tried to convince me to write, produce and direct my own film. I had no interest in directing. “The only story I’ve ever wanted to direct is the Stefano biopic and Chi Chi 86’d that years ago.” After explaining my fated email in 2001, Adam felt enough time had passed. We paid our tab, we rounded the corner and ran smack into one Chi Chi LaRue. It had to be a sign, right?
The next morning, I sat down with LaRue himself and convinced him to let me write the script. But I would need him to help me get in touch with the others. He had rightfully circled the wagons after Stefano’s death. They were family and families don’t spill secrets.
I had drinks with Sharon Kane at the Abbey and lunch with Chris Green at Aroma Cafe. I flew to New York and interviewed Robert Prion, Michael Musto, and Jerry Douglas. I flew to Las Vegas and interviewed Chi Chi competitor Brian Maley, who found Joey’s lifeless body at that Hollywood La Brea Motel in November 1994.
The reporter, “Mickey Skee,” eluded me for months, until I randomly discovered by accident that I actually already knew him as Mike Szymanski and he sang in the choir at my church. I would discover this information when Mike called me while I was standing in a hallway at Cedars Sinai, where Stefano was pronounced “expired.”
Geoff Gann (aka “Karen Dior”) died in 2004, Fred Bagey (aka “Gender”) vanished off the face of the Earth, and I couldn’t locate Tony Davis to save my life. Stefano’s family declined all interview requests.
I interviewed close to a hundred people. It was important for me to interview everyone personally and only use the research, interviews and archives that Mike provided to me. Mike’s apartment is a vault of history, containing clippings, photos, tapes, and notes going back nearly thirty years. My research took about a year before I had the first draft.
I wanted the “realies” (what I called “the real people”) to sign-off on the script. Even in places where action might be a composite of events, I wanted them to feel I portrayed them accurately and authentically. Read: I didn’t want to stand up in a Q&A next to Chi Chi and have him scream, “That never happened!”
I was also obsessed with finding the infamous red shirt everyone spoke of in their interviews. The story of the “red sweatshirt” first appeared in an article Mike wrote for Manshots about the night of Joey’s death. The shirt was passed around the mourning friends, just hours after he died, still damp from his sweat. Sharon didn’t have it. Chi Chi didn’t have it. No one could remember who had it. Chris thought Geoff had it or one of Geoff’s lovers had it, but most of them were dead.
With the script completed, I attached Missi Pyle as “Sharon Kane,” Willam Belli as “Geoff Gann/ Karen Dior,” and Ryan O’Connor as “Chi Chi LaRue.” Years later, I attached Michelle Visage as a talk show host (a composite character from the 90s) and Alaska as “Gender.”
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In 2010, agents and managers would laugh when I sent the script and an offer for “Joey.” “He’s not going to play a gay character.” “We’re not going to LET my client play a gay character.” “He’s not going to do nudity.” (Months later the same actor leaked his own sex tape.) Even out actors’ agents turned it down because the money wasn’t enough or “he’s not going to play a porn star!” “What’s the budget? It’s only a million? Ha!”
At least six of those actors have since come out publicly over the last nine years. At one point, the team for one of the biggest names in Hollywood said, “It’s perfect for him! We love this script and it’s a great role!” and two days later, “Can we stick a pin in this? He’s going into rehab.”
At one point in 2018, we had a “Joey” lead officially on the hook. I was ecstatic. His agents were ecstatic because he hadn’t taken any film roles since he started his successful series. The day we were going to make the announcement, they emailed he had cold feet and was scared about getting the role wrong.
Each time a cast announcement was released, it was picked up by nearly every gay news site all over the world. On Good Friday 2012, we released character photos of Ryan, Missi, and Willam through The Advocate and I received a phone call saying we temporarily crashed their servers from the traffic.
The budget hovered at around a million dollars. That’s not a lot of money, but it’s also A LOT of money. That’s all actors making favored nations at about two thousand a week at SAG-AFTRA low scale. It probably wouldn’t afford the nineties soundtrack we want. And it would be a lot of the time-honored Hollywood indie tradition: beg, borrow, steal. It would mean asking friends to work as extras for free on big days. It would be good food (which is the most important thing on any set) and no trailers. The reason is financial: You want the investors to make their money back and a small profit, but investing in an LGBTQ centric film about an adult star in 2010 was a huge risk.
I really liked “King Cobra,” which was inspired by the life of porn star, Brent Corrigan. However, Corrigan came out against the filmmakers, saying they “bastardized” his life to present an inaccurate portrayal of the murder and of his time in porn.
Because our industry loves to oversimplify projects, people would say, “Oh, it’s a gay ‘Boogie Nights’” and I always correct them, “It’s Gia with a dude.” For me, it’s not a movie about the porn industry. It’s a movie about addiction and the family you create. And it is entirely sympathetic to Joey’s difficult journey, from losing his father as a teen to coming out in a small town Chester, Pennsylvania, to falling into big-town addiction, a not uncommon trajectory for young gay men who, thank god, mostly survive.
We did four investor readings and every time, the script was praised. But every time I was asked, “Do you have a horror script? You know horror sells. I mean, who is going to pay to see a movie about a dead gay porn star?”
Potential investors appeared and disappeared (one, committing suicide after a major fraud investigation). One producer claimed to have an in with a major studio and months later, fired for embezzlement. One was a pathological liar and had to be legally removed.
For years, I would call the attached actors, “so there’s been some new interest” only to have the trail go cold months later. It was soul-crushing. God knows Chi Chi grew tired of seeing my name pop up on his phone with news of another interested investor, only to have him disappear.
In 2012, my short film “Groom’s Cake” (and the feature film sequel, “Birthday Cake”) hit the festival circuits and we won awards all over the world. I tried to travel to as many cities as possible, hoping I would meet a millionaire/s who would invest in the new film. Lots of leads, which all went cold. I’ll be the first to admit “Cake” isn’t “Schindler’s List.” It’s a mockumentary made for $15,000. And to date, thanks to a terrible distribution deal, we still haven’t made half of that back.
I learned from Ava DuVernay while working on “Selma”: “It’s all in self-distribution now. You have to distribute it on your own.”
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Burned and heartbroken, I put “Joey” away, hoping it might find the right timing in a few years.
In 2017, everything changed: “Moonlight” won Best Picture. “Call Me By Your Name” was an awards darling.
Everyone in Hollywood was suddenly clamoring for “their Moonlight.” The phone started ringing again. “Do you still have that Stefano script?” Another set of producers materialized and once again, empty promises all around.
But the landscape had officially changed. Hollywood was seeking and distributing LGBTQ centric films in theaters and on television now more than ever before. To name just a few: “Love, Simon,” “Killing Eve,” and, most recently, “Batwoman.” Even “Queer Eye” and “Will & Grace” were back.
And of course, “Pose” changed representation for trans actors forever. Steven Canals blew the door off the hinges.
Two years ago, I got a phone call from Tony Davis’ husband, Wayne. He had found my Facebook page for the film. Tony was diagnosed with AIDS in 1993 and hit hard with meningitis in 2013 and again in 2014. He’s 75% disabled and the brain lesions left him verbally and mobility compromised, according to Wayne, who was able to help me understand Tony. They both read the script and loved it. I made a trip to LA and met them.
While sitting with them at the Renaissance Hotel with Wayne and Tony, who I’d finally found, Mike called me and said he’d found something he had to show me. He had recently come across a box of Karen Dior’s clothing and each of the pieces had little notes pinned inside them. Dresses. Shirts. Jeans.
He pulled out a red poplin shirt with a note that read: “Nicky died in this.” Mike realized when he wrote the story the night of his death, his note, “a red, sweaty shirt” was rewritten by Manshots as “a red sweatshirt.”
I still have no explanation as to why I felt the need to find this shirt for nearly eighteen years, but here it was. I felt like I had finally caught this ghost I had been chasing for nearly two decades.
I’ve probably sent the script to over 500 actors, agents, investors and producers.
In my telling of the story, it’s about a group of friends who loved each other, worked together, celebrated their angels and battled their own demons together. Joey Stefano was one of the most beloved porn stars of his generation because, in a time when we were just starting to understand HIV, he provided an escape. He was the Italian everyman turned to sex fantasy. He had a charisma you just couldn’t describe. The Porn Brat Pack was royalty in West Hollywood in the early nineties. When they walked into a club, people stopped and stared. They parted crowds.
Today, anyone with an iPhone can be a “porn star.”
And even more, it’s a story about addiction. It makes no judgments on its players. Addiction is the villain in this story. Addiction is a disease that wants you dead.
This November marks the 25th anniversary of Nick Iacona’s death. Today, he’s buried in an unmarked grave in a small cemetery, not far from his childhood home in Chester.
I really hope I get to share his story soon.
(And if you have a million dollars, call me.)
Doug
Great article! As someone who read “Wonder Bread and Ecstasy” many years ago, I hope the author finds financing for this.
ChadDarnell
Thanks, Doug!
Josh447
Great read.
I don’t think Joey wants this movie made. But talk about searing hot. White lightening in blue jeans that boy was.
ChadDarnell
@Josh447 – could you elaborate? You don’t think he wants this movie made? Have you been in… contact with him?
Josh447
@Chad Darnell
Hi Chad. Yes. Good catch. Send contact info?
Josh447
@Chad Darnell
Yes. Good catch. Contact info?
maleficent
not a hotter “boy” existed during his time…. he was def a man and the perfect size too. an icon! I’ll never forget our time..
Catholicslutbox
today’s porn stars don’t compare to some of the classics. there are way too many tatted roid queens.
Shame he was poz.
MacAdvisor
“Drug use was common in those days”
Yeah, so uncommon now.
Brian
Yeah, that’s what I was thinking. Sadly, there is nothing unique about Joey’s story, beautiful young porn stars OD on a fairly regular basis.
Catholicslutbox
i wouldn’t be surprised if chi chi was the one supplying it.
ChadDarnell
@Catholicslutbox – I spoke to the drug dealer who supplied him with the final dose. And he’s dead now as well.
Bob LaBlah
Chad, thanks for responding to my earlier post. I think I already know the answer to this question but I am going to ask it anyway. Has the thought crossed your mind that if this movie were made it could lead to other things that happened that MANY involved prefer to take such things to their grave with them? I read the book Wonder Bread and Ecstasy when it first came out (I remember buying it from the now long ago closed Crown Books Store in Dupont Circle) and remember reading in a chapter about a very POWERFUL musician whom used to beg Joey to let him do it bareback and he always said no. The way that part is worded its clear he saw that guy and numerous other powerful people who are still alive. Its just too hard to believe there is any other reason, especially considering the time you’ve put into this.
Sapphireone
Yeah, sounds cool and all…but I, too, would have reservations turning a script over to a writer who doesn’t know the difference between “alluded” and “eluded.”
ChadDarnell
Thanks for the vote of confidence. You seem fun.
And thank you, @Evji108 – indeed an autocorrect that I missed when editing.
Virpilosus
Chad, Thank-you for this engrossing, powerful, and tender article! I am old enough to remember Joey Stefano as one of my “dream fantasies,” and a guy who helped me “stay the course,” and keep my sanity in a closeted world. I am immediately going to forward this article to several friends of mine who will, no doubt, have the same response as me…”hope the film gets made!” And, IF I had that million $, I would indeed send it to you! Best of luck!
Virpilosus
ChadDarnell
Thank you! I appreciate the note!
Evji108
@Sapphireone
I noticed that error too, I suspect it was an auto correct error or a typo. It could even have been the fault of Queerty. His writing is not full of other errors and condemning his entire film project on the basis of one error shows what a mean spirited person you are.
dre23222
He is cute. Wish I was at the age then to meet him. He was sexy!!
rock9221
Your allude to a person who eluded you – glad you found him. I remember when Nick died – it was a horrible shock. Honestly wonder how much interest there is in the story as a film from a commercial perspective, but it would be great if it gets made.
ChadDarnell
Thanks for the note!
wikidBSTN
Ahhhh, the golden age of gay porn. How I miss it. Seems like anyone can be in porn these days – and the instant gratification of having it all immediately on your phones and PC’s eventually makes it just kind of boring. Stars like Stefano – you waited and craved their next release. Everyone had their favorites – and Joey was the favorite of many. I hope you get your funding Chad. Today’s interest with addiction and its heightened curiosity with things gay might just be a bankable mix.
VegasRed66
@wikidBSTN
Yep, those were the Golden Years of gay porn, I had a membership at the Century Theatre on Hollywood Blvd that showed a lot of gay porn movies. Live nude shows too. Burned down from what I recall.
Paulie P
Why not just let him RIP..if after all these years there is no interest in a biopic of a gay porn star who dies just let it go and focus on something else. I saw him all the time at the Gaiety and he stayed at a hotel on West 49th Street next door to my office. Yes he was good looking and watching him during the live sex show at the Gaiety was great but it’s time to write a bigger script and maybe have his story be part of that…..
Chrisk
What a dumb thing to say. When he died i remember being shocked by it and telling my friends. I lived in Seattle at the time. It was a different era and weird as it sounds today he was a celebrity. Clearly he still gets peoples attention.
Paulie P
Chrisk
What a dumb thing to say. When he died i remember being shocked by it and telling my friends. I lived in Seattle at the time. It was a different era and weird as it sounds today he was a celebrity. Clearly he still gets peoples attention.
WHAT IS DUMB?….. That I said write a bigger script and include him in that script? Write a bigger story about the industry and maybe expand of the dangers of drugs and that world? Sorry CHRISK your age is showing.
AnnMargretFan
Thanks Chad for sharing this!
I remember seeing Joey at a club in San Francisco about 30 years ago now… the Power House or Power Inn, something like that. And as you stated Chad – the room parted when he entered. He stood alone in the center of a very crowded room. I had just come out, and had not seen any of his videos (before the Internet). My boyfriend at the time, told me who he was… I just stared and smiled. He danced with a few guys then left. As I began to watch gay porn, I always sought out his films, due to that little encounter.
Our claim to gay porn here in Sacramento is Ryan Idol, aka Marc Anthony Donais. He was famous around the time Joey was, and equally handsome. He had a very violent streak and was arrested here for attempted murder for smashing his girlfriend over the head with a toilet tank lid. He was also convicted of battery, assault with a deadly weapon and “corporal injury on a spouse or cohabitant”. He is now housed at the California Inmate Medical Facility in Vacaville, California – a medical facility for mentally ill prisoners. Due to bad behavior, fighting & drugs, he lost all his good time, and must complete his full sentence of 12 years. And due to his 3 strike record, he is eligible for life without parole if convicted of another violent crime, so he chose a deal to do his entire sentence instead of getting a new charge. His release date is currently August of 2023.
Ignore those on here who tell you let your dream script fade away, to let it go, he wouldn’t want it made, etc. Who knows, your eventual film might help others who would otherwise fall into the same path as Joey.
MacAdvisor
According to the CDCR inmate locator web page, inmate AM-5223, Marc Anthony Donias, is eligible for parole in January of 2022 or a little more than two years from now. While the information you state is supported by his Wikipedia entry, it is clearly not accurate. Moreover, one cannot “chose” to do one’s entire sentence. When the CDCR decides to release you, out you go.
ChadDarnell
I appreciate your note. Thank you!
JPDonahue
He’d frequently come into a store I worked at to buy things to dance in at the different NYC places. The Gaiety, The ShowPalace.
Super sweet. His death was huge. Good luck!
ChadDarnell
Thanks! And you wouldn’t happen to remember any of the music he bought, do you? That was one question no one could remember. Mike has a video of him doing the towel dance, but I was always curious what he used at The Gaiety.
JPDonahue
I should have clarified! He’d buy things to wear! Thongs, jock straps… well… variations of those two! We never charged him for them. He’d be so entertaining and sweet. We sold to all the gay porn performers of the early 90’s. He was the most gracious.
Chrisk
I remember him being featured on Frontiers Magazine in a sailor hat. I was like wow. I kept that for so long.
seaguy
David Geffon are you paying attention? You could fund this easily!
Chrisk
I think I see what you did there. Especially considering he was probably his biggest client at the time.
Kangol2
This article by Chad Darnell is a Queerty gem. Well-told, engrossing, and a great tribute not only to Joey Stefano’s memory, but to Darnell’s persistance in trying to realize his dream of bringing his script and Stefano’s story to life onscreen. I wasn’t a big Stefano fan but I would definitely watch this film based on Darnell’s demonstrated storytelling ability in this piece.
ChadDarnell
Thank you! This means a lot.
Manchester
I remember when he OD’d and thought it was inevitable. I read Wonderbread, Chi Chi’s autobiography, Aiden Shaw’s and Scott O’Hara’s as well as Casey Donovan’s biography all one right after the other around 1997ish. It was interesting to read things I had known from magazine articles, things I had no idea about and things that I had experienced in my own life. All together, it was educational, riveting and sad. I would totally want to watch a movie about these actors. Having said that, Joey Stephano was sort of a one note singer. His days were basically on repeat and he had a nice ass. The book portrayed him as a selfish brat and that could get boring after a while. Chi Chi was the same way but worse. It’s hard to have empathy for people so self centered. I would love to have done research like you’ve described. So interesting and sort of cloak and daggery. Great article all in all!
Bob LaBlah
I can’t thank you enough for that update on Tony Davis. He was a hot twink before the word twink got coined. I always wondered what happened to him and now I know. Thank god he’s still alive and I think its wonderful how he was able to find and keep a lover throughout the ups and downs with his health. Now I’m wondering what happened to Falcon’s Tristan Paris. He was another little cutie who used to work with Chi Chi that seems to have upped and vanished.
ChadDarnell
Thanks, Bob!
woodroad34
Never understood the craze over Joey Stefano…but then again, I never understood the craze over Jimmy Dean. Must be a time-specific thing.
Bmac
I hope Finn Wittrock is on your short list to star…
ChadDarnell
I thought so too two years ago…
CityguyUSA
I remember the first Gay Pride Parade I attended was in Philadelphia. I saw this sexy guy up in Rittenhouse Square where the parade was assembling to begin its leisurely stroll through the rich neighborhood. I pointed across the park to a handsome guy I had been eyeing to my friend who said, “don’t you know who that is”? Of course I didn’t, I was just barely out of the closet. He told me that was Joey Stephano and I said so? “He’s a porn star.”
I was enthralled with him but when I was dancing beside him on the roof of, I think it was some type of art museum, I watched him hoping he would make a move to even say hi, He seemed so sad. No one talked to him nor did he talk to anyone. Had I been braver I’d have gone over to him and who knows maybe it would have changed his life or mine but he was a porn star and I wasn’t and felt out of my league
I was always willing to take on someone that was suffering. It was my way with people in general. But as infatuated as I was I didn’t have the nerve to just grab him up and go off with him.
It wasn’t long after that I heard he killed himself. I was sad and feeling a bit guilty like maybe I really could have helped. Yeah, I know what all you bitter types are thinking, how could I be so arrogant but Joey Stephano didn’t seem like the typical gay male and obviously he wasn’t because his claim to fame was being the first bottom that was also a star. Never before was bottom considered a star attraction, he changed all that.
I soon found his book and it was an incredible read. I remember not being able to put it down. Something I hadn’t done in a long time. In all honesty, it may have been one of the more interesting books I read. I remember internalizing the whole thing and feeling sad that I hadn’t talked to him and that would be something that I could never change.
I always had a thing for the South Philly blue-collar guys. I dated several of them over the years. But he seemed so out of place in a place he should have felt so very much at home.
I’m surprised that there’s no interest in producing this we’ve certainly had much worse films at the Gay & Lesbian Film Festivals where I was always left wondering what the hell I just watched and why is it so hard to have a good movie with gay characters where it isn’t degraded to porn within the first 5 minutes. Yet here’s a quality story, at least from my point of view, that may not attract all filmgoers but as long as it’s done tastefully it could be something about a porn star and not be a porno.
ChadDarnell
Thanks for sharing this. It’s not that there’s no interest, it’s that 10 years ago there weren’t any investors interesting in investing in a film about a porn star who died of an overdose. Times have changed. Hopefully next year.
Cam
Ahhhh, Hollywoood, the land where a TV show, can have a hundred people brutally murdered yet the mere mention of something with a gay theme will send every investor or publicist running for the hills.
[email protected]
I miss Nicky. I can not believe it’s been 25 years.
bernie75
Grew up same time and place – one town away. Weird to think what a different path lives take. I was grateful to have an open gay village next door and took advantage of the gay life – but had opportunities for education he didn’t have. But going to LA after that childhood was a dangerous combination. I felt like prey for vultures – who would offer anything for a young cute kid. Without options, he used what he had. Shame – seemed like a decent person underneath.
bigrawtop
I was roommates with Karen Dior. She was the biggest slob ever. I eventually moved out. Joey visited often with Chi Chi. Tony Davis lived downstairs. Those were the days.
Tombear
I would love to see this movie. The difference between Nick and other porn stars that ODd is that we are still talking about him years after his death. If you set up a crowdfunding site I will donate.
nitejonboy
Yes, one of the reasons this film has yet to be funded is because of homophobia and insecurities with actors and producers, I will admit that…but the other problem is that it’s just not that compelling of a topic…the book may have been true, but it portrayed Stefano as a diva bitch who made everyone’s lives hell and was boring as hell if he wasn’t having sex…and the reason none of them wanted their story told is because they were all enabling him and are responsible for his death in one way or another. And if you look at recent movies about porn stars none of them have been popular, not KING COBRA, not WONDERLAND ( about John Holmes ) and definitely not LOVELACE ( about Linda Lovelace ), and it would be even harder to make a gay one popular. If you look at a show like THE DEUCE ( which was brilliant, IMO ) which dealt with the porn industry, it was focused on multiple plot lines outside of the porn industry scenes, all of which were very compelling, which was how they got away without showing much nudity ( minus the girls ) and hardcore sex, but if you have a movie about a gay porn star, gay men are going to want skin,they won’t give a shit about his life outside of that, sad but true, and if his life was as boring as it was, they will tune out…if I were you I’d write and sell a bigger movie first that will then fund this movie for you, if you absolutely have to have a movie about a talented drug addict,write one about Janis Joplin or Hendrix or Amy Winehouse, someone a lot more people cared about than a gay porn star, then use the money from that to make your pet project…many script teachers teach that you cant put all your faith and life into one script, if that script goes nowhere keep moving and writing, I know I’m telling you nothing you havent heard already. Good luck to you though. Always nice to see someone who can see past someones addictions into the real them. I’m an actor, would love to work with you sometime if you ever need a chubby character actor.
Chrisk
Ever heard of boogie nights?Made some people stars and revamped others careers.