Higher powers

After being rejected by his church, this gay man found acceptance and love in witchcraft

Marque Caban (a.k.a. Panther) is a self-described “psychic wizard” from Sydney. He recently sat down with ABC-Australia to talk about his unique journey from Catholicism to witchcraft.

Without a stable family, Marque’s childhood wasn’t easy. He spent much of it being shuffled in and out of foster care and orphanages, some government-run, others managed by religious orders.

“Even though I was in an orphanage, I spent most of my time alone,” he tells ABC-Australia. “I was the weirdo in the group.”

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He continues, “As a kid, I would see colors around people and I would see beings, I guess you’d call them spirit guides. I thought that what I saw everyone could see, but I found out later on in life that that wasn’t the case.”

As all this was happening, Marque was also coming to terms with his own sexuality. On top of that, Christianity was being imposed upon him by his caretakers. He also suffered what he describes vaguely as “experiences of abuse” by certain religious leaders.

To say it wasn’t easy would be an understatement.

“I didn’t know who I could talk to,” he recalls. “In those days you didn’t talk, you hid it.”

For a while, he considered entering the priesthood, but as he grew older, he found himself more and more turned off by the church. When he finally came out as gay, he says, the abuse and discrimination only intensified.

“It was hard enough having that pointed at me, then to be gay and [for them] to say ‘you’re an abomination’ was just horrific.”

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That’s when he discovered Paganism and witchcraft. He was introduced to Wicca by Leonora Jackson while he was working at a bar.

“She knew straight away that I was a hyper-sensitive person, and that I could feel and see things that I wasn’t quite sure how to control,” he recalls.

After striking up a friendship, Leonora inducted him into her coven,where he’s been a member now for over 30 years.

“A coven is a place of security, safety, where people can come and learn certain things, and express themselves in certain ways that might otherwise be unacceptable in other parts of society,” Leonora tells ABC-Australia.

Wiccans live by the belief: “Do what thou will, as long as it brings no harm.”

This resonated with Marque, who says: “I wasn’t accepted by the church because of my sexuality. I wasn’t accepted by the church because of my belief system, and because I could see energies.”

Leonora taught him his sexuality, his visions, and his feelings were all OK.

“I think most [people who] study the occult or psychic awareness and so forth, they have a calling–it’s part of them,” she says. “Because they know there’s something beyond just plain, old living, and they’re driven to go look for answers.”

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h/t: ABC-Australia

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19 Comments

  • ChrisK

    I wonder if he’s sought any kind of mental help. Seeing beings around people could be a good sign of schizophrenia or something.

    • Donston

      Or he could just be a basic pretentious weirdo. You can’t really tell these days. I will admit that I went through a “I think I’m a witch” phase in my mid-teens.

    • 1EqualityUSA

      amygdala-action, reptilian-brain survival mode.

    • Heywood Jablowme

      As long as he doesn’t move to the U.S. and run for Senate as a Republican, I’m cool with it.

  • Artiewhitefox

    Satan was abusing him through people who toke the name of Jesus in vain.
    Proverbs 15:26 The thoughts of the wicked are an abomination to the LORD: but the words of the pure are pleasant words.
    Proverbs 12:22 – Lying lips [are] abomination to the LORD: but they that deal truly [are] his delight. Proverbs 11:20 – They that are of a froward heart [are] abomination to the LORD: but [such as are] upright in [their] way [are]his delight. Unfriendly, abominable, froward liars who don’t have pleasant speech make Leviticus 18:22 KJV to be what that verse does not say. People against the gay are not dealing truly. People against the gay are froward. Jesus is not froward toward people. His enemy is. Proverbs 8:8 – All the words of my mouth are in righteousness; there is nothing froward or perverse in them. KJV Cambridge edition.1611 or 1900.

    • kafir

      Satan is a myth , just like your repulsive gods jesus and yahwey . The bible is the bigest book of trash ever , I use it for loo paper and to roll cigges

  • Artiewhitefox

    Satan was abusing him through people who took the name of Jesus in vain.
    Proverbs 15:26 The thoughts of the wicked are an abomination to the LORD: but the words of the pure are pleasant words.
    Proverbs 12:22 – Lying lips [are] abomination to the LORD: but they that deal truly [are] his delight. Proverbs 11:20 – They that are of a froward heart [are] abomination to the LORD: but [such as are] upright in [their] way [are]his delight. Unfriendly, abominable, froward liars who don’t have pleasant speech make Leviticus 18:22 KJV to be what that verse does not say. People against the gay are not dealing truly. People against the gay are froward. Jesus is not froward toward people. His enemy is. Proverbs 8:8 – All the words of my mouth are in righteousness; there is nothing froward or perverse in them. KJV Cambridge edition.1611 or 1900

    • Heywood Jablowme

      “Unfriendly, abominable, froward liars who don’t have pleasant speech…”

      Are you a speechwriter/translator for Kim Jong Un? “Froward” is right up there with “dotard”!

  • Sam6969

    How interesting it must be to meet this guy. I think he is well advanced and knows a great deal about human nature. I love this kind of article.

  • pudman56

    Maybe he’s just someone who finally woke up to the fact that Christianity has been the downfall of civil society and eventually learned that there are other avenues you can seek where you find true acceptance for whoever you are, as long as you do no harm. As for his “visions”? I believe in the idea of some being able to “sense” things that most mere mortals cannot.

    In other words, I have the capability to accept AND investigate if I have doubts, but all with an open mind, something Christianity has never gotten a grasp of.

  • Kangol

    Here’s another version of the headline: Gay man drops an oppressive faith-belief system for one he finds non-oppressive. How’s that? (Though the hallucinatory colors and beings could point to something else, like psychophrenia or other psychological/sensory issues.) I’m glad to read that he’s doing better, though.

    • ChrisK

      Technically they’re both faith based since neither one can be proved.

    • Buzz the Bear

      Yeah….Kelly was a stay at home whore and pretty good at it too from the level of her income. She also “managed a stable of other hookers and took most if not all of their income. Whadda gal!

  • Josh447

    Great story. The church beat psychic abilities out of people so we as a race would not evolve and thereby stay bound to psychotic false religious gods. Why do you think Jesus was murdered? He wasn’t exactly teaching Sunday school for the Jews.
    This guy obviously wasn’t going to have any of that psychosis. Bravo for him.

  • Chris

    How many thousands of Catholics and/or Christians have left their Churches because of their homophobia and/or because of abuse (physical, psychological, and sexual) by those Churches’ religious leaders? The “sensitive” or spiritual among them have made their ways to other forms of expression. So what’s the “news” here?

  • Daniel-Reader

    Quantum mechanics already demonstrates that perception/observation has an influence on physical outcomes so you never know what else will be discovered.

  • Will L

    I think it’s important for everyone to have a belief system, whatever it is. Wicca doesn’t really appear any different than any other so I’m glad he found something he likes. I personally came to the conclusion that there are too many crazies in Christianity and switched to Buddhism some time back. The main thing is to always apply the rules to yourself only, never others. Unfortunately, so many people (especially Christians) can’t do that. Homophobia wasn’t so much an issue for me. It was just the overall hypocrisy (even in the gay Christian groups). (If you are in a gay Christian group, I apologize if I painted them with too broad a brush.)

  • Knight

    LOL!!! This article is as predictable as it is laughable. This guy is a self-proclaimed “psychic” who “sees colors around people” and was told he was a “a hyper-sensitive person, and that I could feel and see things that I wasn’t quite sure how to control”…so, yeah….it’s no wonder he gravitated towards any belief-system and individuals who would validate his self-delusions of being somehow extraordinary, when in reality he’s just a nobody who amounted to nothing. Same thing with the so-called “indigo children” who were told for years that they had ‘special gifts” that would redeem humanity…the vast majority of whom are now in their 30s/40s and still living at home with their parents because they don’t have a clue on how to make it in the real world.

    Rather than indulging these wayward fantasies and feeding their egos, maybe people should give them a dose of reality on what it takes to be a functioning human being?

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