A bisexual man says he’s “desperate” to have sex with another man, but he isn’t sure how to broach the subject with his wife, so he’s seeking advice from life guru Stoya over at Slate.
“I knew I wasn’t straight for most of my life but have only had sex with one guy,” the 31-year-old writes. “[He was] an ostensibly straight friend in high school, and it was a secret on/off thing that involved a lot of cheating and eventually blew up our friendship and several others.”
The man goes on to explain that he didn’t come out as bisexual until his late 20s after “I drunkenly kissed one of my then-girlfriend’s gay male friends at a party.” That girlfriend later became his wife.
“We have a strong monogamous relationship with a mutually satisfying sex life,” he continues. “The problem is, I can’t seem to shake the desire to have sex with a guy again, both because I’m attracted to guys and because I regret that my only experience thus far was as a closeted, denial-ridden teen.”
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The man says he isn’t quite sure how to arrange a threesome, and he also fears asking his wife for permission to have sex with another guy on his own. Trying an open relationship isn’t off the table; however, he’s afraid it might turn him into a sex addict.
“I’m also scared of the possibility of going down the rabbit hole and becoming a sex addict, since I’m already in recovery for drugs and alcohol, but that’s another issue.”
Now, he wonders: “Why am I still having such a tough time admitting what I want? Is it better to risk pursuing it than to keep trying to repress it, as I’ve been doing for so long? Would I be a more selfish partner for asking for permission to explore this, or am I being considerate in holding back?”
In her response, Stoya tells the man that he should be less worried about coming across as selfish and more concerned about how keeping his true desires buried deep down is harming his relationship.
“When you hold something of this magnitude back,” she writes, “you’re disrupting your intimacy.”
“It might jeopardize your relationship to broach the subject of one-on-one sex with another man, but keeping that desire secret might damage the relationship as well. It isn’t about what’s more or less selfish so much as maintaining open communication with your partner.”
Stoya encourages the man to talk to his wife, tell her how he feels and what he feels would be fair to him, and ask what she feels would be fair to her.
“To me, it seems fair for people who are interested in pursuing liaisons outside the marriage to have that freedom, as long as those without interest don’t feel pressured to be poly.”
In the end, hopefully they come find a common ground. But that won’t happen until the man reveals the extent of his true feelings.
“You don’t ever have to act on your desires for other men, but I do think you should let your wife know what’s going on,” Stoya concludes. “She’s shown she can work through difficult moments with you—be open about your fears, and trust her to help you figure this out.”
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Cam
““I’m also scared of the possibility of going down the rabbit hole and becoming a sex addict, since I’m already in recovery for drugs and alcohol, but that’s another issue.””
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Translation:
“Scared of becoming a sex addict” = ” will like having sex with guys more and want to keep doing it”
“In recover for Drugs and alcohol” may equal “Tried to suppress wanting to sleep with men with drugs and alcohol.”
LARRY
Sexual repression and the truly outdated notion that one person can completely satisfy you is a plague on Americans. I am not advocating that all relationships should be non-monogamous nor do I think all marriages should be open. I am however suggesting that having successfully navigated an open marriage for the last 18 years if you are truly open with your S.O. life is much easier.
Chrisk
I’ll never understand monogomy for younger couples. Usually you’ll find religious reasons for it.
To a bi sexual that would be absolute torture. Just find a mate open to it. It’s not that difficult these days.
rikard_pearson
desire and acting on that desire are two different things. i’m not suggesting repressed sexual desire is acceptable. Being attracted to men does not mean you abandon control and start hitting the local sex clubs and shutting your way through hook up aps. talk to your wife. she knows you are bi, she probably has noticed your growing attraction and would like to hear from you about it. then you discuss what it means for your marriage.
djmcgamester
Hon, I want to cheat. You cool with that?
radiooutmike
You know what, if people actually did that people would be a lot happier.
Chaucer
Trust me….come out to her NOW. Otherwise misery looms for the future.
ricdardc1
Is someone pulling my legs apart here, & inserting in me Dry? This is Straight Up , Joan Collins Husband Cheating Sh*t. from a Cheap 1990’s Jackie Collins Novel. If Not Just do it & Get it Over with already , Mary the seed is already Planted, Might as well Taste The Fruit !
enlightenone
Transparency BEFORE the “marriage” that is the real definition of an “open” relationship!
Hussain-TheCanadian
I agree, the man isnt even honest in framing his question: “We have a strong monogamous relationship with a mutually satisfying sex life,”.
My inner Rupaul says “btch who you lying to? You need to take off your drag and look straight into a mirror, your trueself will be there looking right back”.